KATHRYN

𝐺𝑜𝑜𝑑 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑒𝑠 💋!

There are no proper words to accurately emblazon the effects of intense trauma on the human mind, heart, body and soul.  If you’ve never had to battle your ruthless inner demons all day, every day - I am truly happy for you.

However, that reality is not mine.  Every day for the last almost 5 years I have woken up with a decision to make: Just for Today, I will not use.  Let me make it through another 24 hours.  August 4th, 2017 is the day I made the choice to quit using prescription Fentanyl.  Cold turkey.  Contrary to popular belief, quitting opiates cold turkey will not unalive you but you definitely might wish it would.  It was one of the single most difficult things I have ever had to do.

But the life I had been living during active addiction, the people I surrounded myself with and so many decisions I made in my personal life (while my brain was hijacked by Fentanyl) don’t reflect who I really am.  Yet, I’m still paying the price FIVE YEARS later….

I am not a violent person whatsoever, I’m not a thief, I’m not “hustling” anyone — I’m just trying to make a living doing something that I enjoy.  Recently, several clients have treated me in such a disrespectful, awful way that my enjoyment of my work has been seriously compromised.  

So — BEGINNING NOW — I will no longer be seeing ANY new clients without a deposit AND I WILL BE SCREENING.   This may look different for each client;  I will accept references as well as photo ID.  I simply will not compromise my mental wellbeing or risk another situation where someone hurts me and takes off with my money.

A year ago I would have laughed at the idea of such rigorous screening, even probably just a few months ago.  I would have also never thought anyone would be so bold and awful as one particular person was.

So, I’ve made up my mind. And don’t try to change it; I’m damn stubborn when I want to be.  I want to continue to provide the world class service I always have and I have to feel good in order to do so.  And this is what it's going to take.


Much Affection,
𝑴𝒊𝒔𝒔 𝑲𝒂𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒚𝒏