Tuesday, November 29th, 2022
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Just Call Me O
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I know that so many of you are just dying to know...why all the recent changes?
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Firstly, can we please acknowledge that I don't owe anyone any explanation for my life choices? I'm not trying to sound like a jerk, but honestly I had gotten to a point in my life where my life no longer felt like my own. Entertaining in my home isg both a blessing and a curse. In the end, the cons were outweighing the pros -- and to a point that was too much to ignore.
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I often no longer enjoy my sessions when I take off my panties and get close to someone to go all the wayโฆSince being assaulted this summer, I have been silently struggling with this every.single.day. That's not to say that I completely loathe the full service appointments that I have had - and please know that it has everything to do with me going through a very traumatic experience and nothing to do with any one of my clients.
One of the hardest things to do after a trauma is simply to get out of bed in the morning. Getting out of bed is hard on more days than it is not. I do it anyways; though I should have taken more time to heal myself before signing up for the possibility of another incident like that. There is absolutely nothing I could have done differently to have prevented what happened from occuring. This person was in no way showing red flags whatsoever...and being wrong for the first time in almost 20 years is difficult to accept. Other times when something has happened (nothing this extreme) I can admit to myself that I ignored my intuition and booked anyway. That was not the case this time. Maybe that's exactly why he behaves the way he does; to take you so unawares that he gets his way. My mind is constantly spinning and returning to the thought that I must have missed something, I'm hyper focused on some things to the point it eclipses others. I'm really still trying to sort through all that I'm feeling and it's one of the hardest things I have ever done.
I have not been in the best place. Times are hard, things are expensive, and I can't afford not to work. I needed the stability of regular hours and regular appointmentsโฆNot entirely realistic in this industry but working at a club does provide a routine and regular hours. It also gives the added bonus of community - and sometimes itโs all you need to feel better: knowing that youโre not alone.
I chose CMJ because I have known Jasmin for a long time and I have always respected and admired her. I love the layout and the party room complete with dance pole to play on and wall-to-wall mirrors. I have been welcomed with open arms and every girl Iโve met has been warm and friendly.
I wonโt say that Iโm not ever going to return to offering my GFE+ FS or PSE services but for the time being - Iโm going back to basics. I hope youโll join me!
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So while I make this transition, please be patient with me. I will do you the same courtesy in turn.
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Iโve recognized in myself that I was building to my breaking point and so change was imperative. Iโm quite stubborn when I have made up my mind about something. No amount of money is worth sacrificing my mental health over so please respect my boundaries. Donโt try to convince me otherwise - it will just frustrate you and me.
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I got the name Ophelia from the movie Savages with Blake Lively. If you havenโt see it, do โ and then youโll maybe understand why I like the name so much. Read the book, too, itโs really good.
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If anyone has any questions, please be respectful but donโt hesitate to ask. If I donโt want to share something, I will say so.
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